PART 1

FYI, this blog entry cannot get any more personal. And I'm having to break it up in two parts...

For the past 30+ days, I've been dealing with something totally new & unexpected. I havent been able to talk to many about it, for one simple reason: I didnt want anyone to worry.

On August 30th I went in to the doctors for my annual exam... After getting weighed the nurse took my blood pressure. "Its high" I remember her muttering. I sat in the cold room for about five minutes until the doc walked in. She did her thing and then asked if I was there for a specific reason besides my annual exam. I breifly mentioned my wrist, my right one specifically, hurt me while I was on the computer. Thats when she introduced me to my new BFF, a splint. Said it could be Carpal Tunnel Syndrome. After discussing that, she was getting ready to leave the room & I blurted out " I've felt something on one of my breast for the past couple of months!" She turned around and looked at me, "Well why hadnt you mentioned that earlier honey..." I wasnt going to tell her the truth, because I was scared... After she examined me my fears became a reality, I indeed had an abnormal lump. The docotor then advised me to go get an ultrasound.

The following Monday I called to make the ultrasound appointment, and thats when it all hit me like a cold bucket of water. Could this really be happening to me? I hesitated to tell my own mother, because well, I didnt want her to worry. She worries enough, like all moms do right? But my husband convinced me, so I did. Mom assured me that it was normal & that young women came in all the time to the hospital (my mom works at a hospital) for ultrasounds in their breast. Did that put me at ease? Truthfully, I dont think anything could.

. . . To Be Continued . . .

And because a post is always better with a picture, here's my latest infatuation: CLOUDS :)

New website is LIVE

I'm soo soo excited to share with you what's been keeping me busy... its my new website!

: HOME

I want to say this could not have been possible without the very talented Promise Tangeman-Wurzell & SHOWIT which lets me be ME. Hoping it will help steer my business in the right direction :)

So please check it out and feel free to let me know what you think!

Stuck, but I'm not going to call it a rut.

Have you ever caught yourself doing, craving or wearing the same thing over & over? You know when you have that song in your ipod on REPEAT until you finally get a headache from listening to it like a billion times? Well,... I'm kinda stuck on hiking. Yes, hiking. Its like my thing right now. I've always loved it simply because I'm the type of person that likes to constantly explore new places, try new things, but lately its become a part of my daily routine.

Recently, I've made a promise to myself to take better care of, ME. Physically. Mentally. Spiritually. And over the past couple of weeks, hiking gives me all three in one. Believe it or not, even when I'm huffing and puffing to get to the top (because I'm not quite in the best shape just yet), I get more than a euphoric feeling. Words cant describe the satisfaction of accomplishing a goal & possibly surpassing it. All I have to do is turn up some Benny Benassi music & I'm set to push myself to run up the hills.

In the end, I've seen a glorious view, I'm able to document with tons of pictures, maybe learn some history which I enjoy and definitely have a good workout ;) I want to share a couple photos from recent hikes so you can know a little more about me & my current obsession.

Echo Mountain:

Turnbull Canyon:

That tarantula made a cameo on the trail & scared the bejeebers out of me!

HAPPY FRIDAY

xoxo,

B.love

One year later . . . Nancy & Jose

They had known each other for a long time... For years they attended the same church yet Nancy never really paid much attention to Jose because he was younger. There was always that rumor that he had a crush on her, but Nancy was not interested, again because of his age. 

The years passed and she began to notice he wasn't the same little boy anymore. Jose had become a mature young man & she knew there was something different about him. Something that distinguished him from the rest. Eventually he asked for her number... they spent countless hours on the phone & hung out like great friends. Just friends. However, nine months later Jose expressed his feelings towards Nancy and confessed he was smitten. They went on to date for the next three years & Jose proposed on her birthday in March of 2009. Six months later on September 5th 2009 they were professing their love for each other in front of family & friends.

Nancy contacted me because they wanted 1 year anniversary portraits. Its a wonderful idea & here are a couple of my favorites. We met up in downtown Los Angeles where there was lovely lighting

Nancy your beautiful

Seriously, the way Jose looks at Nancy makes my heart smile... <3

To view more from this session check out the slideshow click here.

Congrats you two & may God continue to bless you life & marriage! xoxo

Quote of the week: John Wooden

Picture taken with iphone while in Pismo last weekend, so don't hate ;)

This quote really struck a cord with me. I know I cannot do it all. It's just not humanly possible. Ever get that feeling when twenty-four hours isn't enough? I may not have the house sparkling clean 24/7 but I can make sure its presentable for unexpected visitors. Laundry basket won't always be empty but for sure hubby will have something to wear ;) You see where I'm going? I may not be perfect; One because perfect doesn't exist, and two because I've come to accept I'm perfect being imperfect. And for good measure, so has Eddy. Every day may not be a "great day" but we can always find something good in every day.

What I want to leave you with: FOCUS ON THE POSITIVE VERSUS THE NEGATIVE.  Its the only way I see to live a happy life. I got bad news early this week, but you know what? I'm not going to dwell on it & let that get me down.  I have to be strong not only for those around me, but for ME. It can always be worse right? Sometimes it's soo easy to get caught up on how you cant do this or how that isn't going as planned. Remember, attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference.

It takes courage. I know its in me & I know its in you too.

Now go spend the weekend with those you love & enjoy every second. Tomorrow is never guaranteed. And too many kisses doesn't exist!

XOXO,

Blove